Saturday, August 28, 2010

2 men I adore.

I am in a missing mode. I learned that it's ok to miss though. I still live for the moment and get excited for what is to come. I am being positive and thats all you can do. I am lucky to be where I am and have the things in my life that I do. I am so appreciative of what I have and love who I am becoming. I must keep my head up and live for who I know I can become. Yet, like I said, I miss my best friends. So much. Oh so much. My 2 best friends to be exact. Life is good tho. My heart is full of love and appreciation.

To my daddy,
Things are hard without you. I miss everything about you. I miss your humor, your smile, your knowledge, your encouragement. Everything imaginable. It is so hard not having you here for big events in my life. Are you proud of the things I am doing in my life? I live to honor your name. Please come visit me while I am sleeping. I would love a nice chat and a big kiss from you :). I may never let you leave me though. What do ya say?! You are and forever will be my best friend. May my husband exemplify you in every aspect. I love you to the sky and back times infinity.
-Your midget

The most amazing man I have ever met in my life.

My sweet elder,
You are out serving the lord. What more could I ask of you? Nothing. Loving the lord is one of the greatest/amazing things you could ask of someone. You do just that. A mission is amazing and I am so grateful for it. You are becoming such an incredible man with a testimony that only continues to grow. I love it. As I read your letters I am amazed by your progress. So much is in store for you and I am lucky to be a part of your life. But, I miss you. I miss you so much. It is so hard being away from you. I will be ok though :). Keep up the amazing work. Until we meet again.
-Your Lex
Gosh he is so handsome I can hardly stand it.

So much is in store for me and I know it. Things are slowly unraveling and I can't wait to see more. I am happy and will make big things happen for myself. Until then, have an awesome rest of the weekend. I know I will! Thank you for all of you who play such a role in my life. I wouldn't be who I am without you.


  1. what a sweet post :)

    i loved every word of it.

  2. way to make me cry lex!!! This was so sweet! I miss dad too! So bad it hurts sometimes. Every little thing reminds me of him and it makes me sad that he isn't around to see my easton boy. I know he would think he was so funny and easton would adore him. I know he comes and visits him though cause Easton was looking at a picture of him one day and said "papa" we hadn't even really talked to easton about him. He just knew him. I get that I look like dad all the time and I love hearing that. Dad was the perfect dad for all girls and I know how lucky I am to have had him in my life for the 16 years that I did. I agree he needs to come visit me more in my sleep. I love you so much lex and i know dad is so proud of you! How could he not be. You are simply AMAZING! one of the most beautiful women I know inside and out. So wise beyond your years and so kind and selfless. I could go on and on about your amazingness. :) I miss chase too he is so sweet. He really impressed me and I am routing for him! He loves the kids and easton loves him. It melts my heart to see him with them. And to write me an email for my birthday won HUGE brownie points with me:) even though he didn't need them cause he already won me over! I love you lex more than you know. Please hang out with me more! I miss you and I am so proud of you and wish I could be more like you. Now that I have written a novel, I'll stop. But I love YOU to the sky and back infinity!! I love our family we are lucky to have eachother. and I am always here for you. We can cry and miss dad together.

  3. Seriously!! I think we are all feeling the changes that have happened in our lives! Sometimes it is really hard. We are so lucky to have each other and we all need to make sure we take full advantage of that wonderful blessing! I love you, you are amazing, I admire you for so many reasons! I love my sisters! Even though you are just down the street, I liked it better when you were next door. Come over!

  4. i come on here to tell you how much i love your rooma and I wasnt expecting to read this. I have missed dad in the last couple weeks just about as much as i did when he first died.I just wish he could give me a hug right now, he made me feel so safe and loved. anything a girl could ask for in a father, we were so blessed to have.Im so far away from you guys and HATE it. I wish we could all just sit and cry and laugh together. we have the best memories of dad and I hope we will always talk about them, I dont want to forget anything!!!!
    I love you lex! I wish you could come and visit me before you leave to china, or we need to have a girls trip before you leave.I love my family so much and i wish we could all live in the same house and be moms together, wouldnt that be fun!

  5. Ah man you girls truly know how to get me. I love you all sooooo much!!! Words cannot express. I don't think they ever will be able to. I really truly feel so blessed to have you in my life. I look up to you so much. Seeing you every so often is just not enough! We need our cousin nights back!! I miss the days of playing at each other's houses everyyyday. But you're right, there is so much in store for you. You are so incredible lex!! Never forget it! and never forget how much I LOVE YOU!! ♥

  6. oh lex! i love you.
    i miss your dad too. he is so amazing! he is for sure proud of you. and proud of all of you, at that. you are all the most beautiful, kind and valiant women. i adore you all.
    you and chase melt me. perfect couple! it will go by so fast. i am so amazed at you for running at life full speed. you're not letting anything hold you back, you're not sitting around waiting for something to happen. you're making it happen. love ya girl!

  7. this post got me so emotional. it was so beautifully written. you are so strong. i admire you. you are just gorgeous inside and out.

  8. Lexi - Im sitting here crying my eyes out...I love this post...I love how eloquent you write - I love hearing about your Dad and reading the conversation between your sisters. You guys are incredible. I love and respect each of you so much. My heart breaks still that your Dad is not here everyday to interact with his incredible girls...But I have absolutely no doubt at all that He is with all of you always. Im sure his heart is bursting with joy at all of the amazing women you have all become. Linds, Mandi, Nicki,Alli, Lexi you are all unbelievable women that I admire so much. I know your Dad is more than proud. I love you all very much and pray often for your family and pray you feel your Dad with you all the time.
    Love all of you!